It was stupid
Silly of me to even dream
That someone as fucked up
As screwd up
Could ever hope to get better
Could ever hope to find a shelter
In a mind tainted with the thoughts
And words that continuously play
Like the sickening melody of my heart beat.
That scrape against the walls of my skull like nails on a chalk board.
When have I ever been alive
What is alive?
Is it that annoying thumping in my chest
is it the blood that I make pour out of my veins
is it the smile that I put on day by day by fucking day the lets you know I’m still here.
I’m not here
I was never something
why do I continue to allow this life that is not mine to continue
why do I continue
what is it keeping me here
I don’t know
While I see these scars heal I think to myself this is the only thing that I have to let me know that I’m still here
I’m still alive
And I continue on but
I’m gonna be 17……………. finally. I’m excited but not overly excited. Ill be 17 whop de doo. I have practically spent the last\ year and half on tumblr so I don’t think I have much to show for being 17 (a year away from 18). I’m a little confused about what I should do with my life now. I’m really just at a stand still. Tell me tumblr what should I do?
You ever want 2 people but they’re both being stolen away by the same person unknowingly…sad sad state of affairs
You guys ever just think that “wow, I was born in the wrong time/place/era.” Because everything you live by or ever thought was a lie.
I was shedding tears earlierI know, me too :’( This has been one of the most awful days for Larry TT_TT I don’t eve know what to think.
I Really hope our ship is a submarine because its slowly sinking like the fucking titanic! Ahh *sobbing uncontrollably*
I ignore it because I know they’re not real but still….